I'm sitting in Seans apartment

he's busy working on his English essay.

Interesting day. I have a new addition to my little family. His name is bear. He's a seven week old Long Haired Chihuahua, and absolutely adorable. Kassi and I fell in love with him at first sight. I was originally going to get this Pomeranian but the guy trying to sell her was a complete asshole. Needless to say, bear is much cuter and such a little flirt. He's a 2 pound brown and white ball of fluff. Plus, he waddles and hops around my apartment and then falls over.. can't get much cuter than that.

Short entry, I'm going to go cuddle with Sean now. Chao

I've been so busy

it's rather exhausting.

Between riding, work, prepping for school, and moving in with Emily.. plus spending time with Sean I'm practically dead. I miss my bestfriend :(.

I was beyond stressed out last night, almost to the point I couldn't function. I went to Sean's after stopping by my mom' s house and he was super sweet to me. He surprised me with my favorite candy, made me some fabulous tea tea, and read to me while rubbing my back as I laid on his chest. By the time I left, I felt much better.

I'm financially stressed. How I'm supposed to afford rent, pay for my lessons, and for the coming show season I'm not sure. I talked briefly about it with my mom and she agreed to pay for some of my lessons but still. I'm switching either to the HEB close to my apartment, or working as a Vet Tech and Highlands Medical Clinic.

Stacie worked my butt off yesterday during the lesson. My back is so sore, haha. Belle and I are laying on my heating pad while doing laundry. Thank goodness today has been a low key day, I definitely needed the time off.

I had

a dream last night that we crossed paths.

At first I didn't know what to say, I was speechless. However, you immediately began talking and informing me of all the recent happenings in your life. I spoke briefly, but primarily just sat there wide-eyed. I woke up and have been curious all day as to what I would do if I ever did see you again, probably nothing. Freeze up, maybe.

It's amazing how quickly two people can become strangers.

Craziness

I've been staying up in north Austin with Emily. I had to get out of the house for a little while, it was too crazy. We've been riding and having fun. The first two nights we went to parties, and last night we went to Walmart for fucking two hours. I just sat in the basket while she and her friend went school supplies shopping and bought things for their apartment. It was pretty entertaining. I'll probably go home in the next few days. Hopefully by then Taylor will have calmed down and such.

A particular someone comes home from D.C. tonight which is exciting. Actually, it's a little ironic because usually I'm the one flying back from Washington. I'll go pick up emily from ACC and then go see him. I'm so jealous, he saw so many famous people on his trip. Nothing exciting ever happens when I go up there.

I miss my little one, and always having wireless internet at my fingertips.
Oh, and of course KASSIANN!

I am so overwhelmed.

Taylor either needs to move back out of the house, or quit being a second mother. She is even more terrible than she was before, and I can't handle it anymore. Pregnant or not, she is way too intrusive. I don't care about her raging hormones. Everything I do that could possibly get me in trouble she points out to my mom.

"Lucy's room isnt clean!"
"Lucy slept into 12 this afternoon!"
"Lucy came home past curfew!"
"Lucy didn't really go to work, where is her HEB shirt?"
"Lucy is drunk mom! Shes high too!" (I don't even smoke.)
It is beyond ridiculous. Seriously, she needs to fucking mind her own business and quit making me feel like crap just because she screwed up and is unhappy with her life.

I went last night to pick up my friend from a party because she was drunk and didn't want to drive. Taylor went and told my mom that I snuck out of house and now my mom will be taking away my keys from me at night. Whatthefuck. My sister is 21 years old, and is acting like a little 12 year old brat.

Thank God I am going riding tomorrow, I need to blow off some steam.

I have heard,

"Lucy, you're teeny tiny."

From more people lately than I have in a long time. Just out of the blue they will squeeze, "You're tiny," into their comments. I can't say I don't like it. I like being tiny. I like small things. I could shrink and be happy, like Alice and Wonderland.

Whoa, dechavu.
This won't be the most self explanatory blog entry ever.

Risk:

• hazard: a source of danger; a possibility of incurring loss or misfortune.
• a venture undertaken without regard to possible loss or injury.
• expose to a chance of loss or damage.
  
• gamble: take a risk in the hope of a favorable outcome.

I'm tipsy baby

Congratafuckinglations to me.
not really.

I'm getting ready to go to Magnolias, great.
I really want a 600, yeah you heard me right.
I miss the boy, like a lot. Wednesday, Wednesday<3.
I hope I sell my Chanel watch tomorrow!
I love you, K!

- The End

New Phone number

I love my best friend.

She is amazing. We've been through a lot, more than most people could fathom. I can honestly say most friendships wouldn't be able to survive through what happened to us, but here we are better than ever. I love you Kassiann!

I HAVE A NEW PHONE NUMBERR!
Yesterday was terrible. I sold my blackberry thinking it would fix my text messaging problem and bought a Palm Treo 755 WITHOUT KNOWING THE SOFTWARE ON IT IS RETARDED! Well, it turns out it wasn't even my phone that was causing the texting problem. It had something to do with my old phone number which sucks the big one. So now I'm blackberryless and stuck with this stupid ass phone. LAME. I decided to just change my number considering that fact that if I kept my old one I would never be able to text Sprint or ATT people. If you want my new one, ask mee<3.

Ill update more later.

And this is why

I quit drinking coffee. Aside from the fact it's bad for my heart.. I start talking, and can't stop. So here we go;

I am getting my new Gucci bag today, it's so beautiful. The only downside is I will be out the ass poor and I really need to get my nails redone but oh well. I suppose I could sell the Chanel J12 watch (obviously for more than the price of a manicure). Screw the sentimental value bullshit and don't remind me it was basically impossible to get. It's not like I wear it, or have any use for it. The freaking watch is just sitting there. So, if anyone wants it let me know. Click here to see it

After the purse extravaganza I'm seeing the boy which will be amazing as always. We're going to have a movie marathon and get fat, haha.

Wow, this was relatively short. Fabulous.

YOU, yes you

[Insert angry rant about you here]

I deleted it for my own sake.

But anyway I would like to present my new Gucci bag, which is love. Most definitely my favorite one yet. I am either getting it tonight or tomorrow, and I am SO FREAKING EXCITED! The thought of it is making my day a 23 billion times better considering the circumstances. If you don't know why, ask me. I hate needles I hate needles. I hate needles. And yes, I am aware more people read this blog then just the bestie :)

Tomorrow will be super busy

I need to go to the doctor, get my nails redone, get heart worm pills for belle, clean my room, see Allison, put my Gucci bag and Blackberry on craigslist (I'm buying a new phone, and a better Gucci bag), cash my check from Gucci, go to Nordstroms and get UGG cleaner, hopefully see Kassiann, then go visit a few people that feel like I've been leaving them out. I highly doubt I will get all of this done.. but oh well.

I've been sick all day so my level of writing a somewhat intellectual entry has gone to the dogs. Regardless, a few short things.

- I am getting super annoyed that my phone STILL is not receiving text messages from Sprint or ATT users. It is obviously getting to the point where I am willing to sell my blackberry Curve for a phone that is not nearly as high end. Fuckmylife! Haha.

- Taylor living back at home is already becoming a mess of its own. She thinks she is entitled to be a bitch 24/7 because she is pregnant, and I can't take much more of it. I love her, but she treats me like shit and all I've done is be supportive.

- It will sell better plain.

I love you KASSIANN! I am here for you! Call me and make sure my little ass gets up in the morning.

-

I have been

so tired lately, and I hate it. It's like what, 11:15 and I'm about to pass out. Sure, I drank a teeny bit but definitely not enough to make me this exhausted. I fell asleep way too early last night as well and missed out on all the festivities. Maybe I can talk Belle belle or Panda into stealing some of their energy, haha.

Ill continue this tomorrow.

New York City

was AMAZING.

Today while walking down Madison Avenue it started snowing hardcore, I was most definitely in love. Starbucks on every block, a four story Juicy couture, could I have been any happier? I went in Tiffany and Co and took the elevator up a few floors and had the Elevator man sing to me, talk about hilarious. The Chanel, Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Bloomingdales, Prada, Stuart Weitzmen, Gucci (etc.) stores I have been to in Texas are nothing in comparison to the even more upscale New York version. Times Square was fabulous, fabulous, fabulous. Wicked on Broadway was incredible, and I was so beyond entertained by the gigantic ferris wheel inside the Toys R Us. [click here] China Town and Little Italy were crazy, but in a good way. After shopping, we went to the Italian restaurant that was in the movie Big Daddy, I had my picture taken with Jorge haha.

I went to ground zero and saw all the work that is being done. The new architecture is going to be beautiful. I spent a lot of time looking at all the little memorials, and it really gave me a more in depth perspective. Never take anything or anyone for granted, our time here in uncertain.

I come home tomorrow, I can't wait. I miss NYC already, but I am definitely taking a week this summer and going back with some friends! Lets starting planningg <3.