The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Great movie, it really got me thinking about many aspects of my life, love being one of them. Love- I've experienced it once, and it kicked me in the ass. I do believe that love never fully ends. I am not being naive and saying if you love someone you will be with them forever, because that is not the case. Shit happens. Love can disappear, be stored away, and sometimes forgotten.. but it will come up again someday. Perhaps when you least expect it. The movie also reminded me of how little time we have on this earth. Living each day to its fullest is definitely going to be one of my New Year's Resolutions. Oh what a year it has been. Twothousandeight wasn't necessarily bad, but it could have been much better. I blame myself for that.

I went and got my makeup done today by Laura Mercier and bought a few new essentials. The Nordstrom's and Bloomingdales in D.C. are so much more upscale, and I love it. I almost bought a pair of Gucci sunglasses today, but didn't. There was also a fabulous pair of True Religion skinny jeans, but the size 25 was too big on me. I will probably order the 24's offline because they are love.

I miss Austin, the boy, my friends, and my little one. I can't wait to come home. Although, going to New York may be worth missing New Years in the ATX.

" it's been a long December, and theres
reasons to believe maybe this year will be
better than the last."

Such a long day

I've been awake since 4 this morning, and today has been so miserable. I slept on the plane to Nashville which was fine, but I freaking had to drive with my Dad and Lisa from Nashville to Washington D.C. which is 12 hours. They were visiting family in Memphis and my Dad decided to be mean and fly me to Nashville instead of D.C. so I could drive with them home. Lamelamelamelame. Oh, and somewhere in the middle of Tennessee my phone coverage went out. I soon learned that my service provider doesn't really exist in Eastern USA which sucks the big one. My phone is my life. how I will survive without it or almost a week, I don't know.

However, I learned today that Dad and Lisa are taking me on a small trip to New York! HELL YES! We are going to see Wicked on Broadway and visit the 9/11 memorial, empire state building, statue of liberty, and of course do some major shopping. I am talking the ORIGINAL Chanel, Louis Vuitton, and Gucci stores baby<3. I leave early on January 1st and will be back in D.C. late the next day. New york is only four hours away which is pretty cool. I'll be back in Austin on the third, thank goodness. I am super bummed that I am yet again missing New Years Eve in Austin, but oh well :/.

Taylor Winn said he'd throw me a "replica" New Years eve party with a whole bunch of people when I get back, hahaha. Hot tubbing and champagne it is! <3

It doesn't really feel like Christmas..

but then again, I wasn't expecting it to. Christmas eve wasn't eventful at all, for the first time in my life. My sister threw a fit yesterday and ruined the original plans of having family friends over for a nice dinner and then going to Church. She ended up basically forcing my mother to go with her to Round Rock to meet her fiance's family. Fiance, baby's daddy, whatever he is. In the middle of the whole argument, she hit me in the face and cut my lip open. Considering that she is pregnant, I took the high road and just walked away. Needless to say, I was pretty pissed and didn't feel like going to Round Rock. I went to Taylor Winn's house and watched movies and hot tubbed instead. It may sound super selfish, but she really did just ruin the whole day for everyone.

But anyways, back to Christmas. Taylor [my sister, not Taylor Winn.. yes they have the same name haha] and Matt, her fiance, came ovcr this morning and we opened presents. It was pretty low key, and now I'm going to take a nap!

I got the Lexus my mom had been telling me about, black UGGS, a Northface jacket, etc. I'm pretty pumped.

KASSIANN! I MISS YOU

Christmas Eve .. morning?

I just got home. Tonight, or rather this morning, was fabulous. In fact, it was exactly what I needed<3. Although I must admit, it feels nothing like Christmas. Perhaps tonight the feeling will set in. Thank goodness I'm not stuck in Memphis like last year. My throat is starting to hurt again, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's not strep. Twice in a week and a half? It would be terrible.

More later.

I'm not suprised...

I realized quite a bit tonight, and it hit me pretty damn hard. Regardless, I enjoyed getting dolled up, meeting new people, and going to Maria Maria's in a stretch Limo as Andrew's date. (No, not Andrew Garza)

All I want for Christmas is happiness, and not just for moments at a time. I've been doing really well, but it's still not good enough. I've seen the worst side of people far too much this year. I'm sick of not being able to trust anyone. Show me someone real, please.

I feel terrible.

I woke up yesterday and pretty much felt like I was dying. It was to the point that I laid in bed for 15 minutes and kept squeaking "....Mooom..." until she finally heard me. My throat was swollen shut, my head was pounding, and I was shaking. Pity on me, but I actually went to the doctor. I cannot stand going to the doctor for reasons most of you are aware of. This morning was very similar, but I actually got out of bed myself this time. I went and downed some advil, took my antibiotic, and went back to sleep. I woke up about an hour ago feeling much better.

My mom came to me the other day and spoke of this Lexus she had seen and wanted to buy for me. This was definitely a miracle considering the fact that my Honda Civic is literally falling apart. A year ago, my mom never would have even thought of buying me, or herself, a Lexus. However, she hired this man named Elliot to help her find a new car, and he somehow convinced her that Lexus' are pretty much amazing and last forever. She's been super happy with her new fancy little car, I guess to the point that she wants to invest in a second one. Call me crazy, but I'm not convinced I want the Lexus. Primarily because I don't like the body style of the year this car is, and I love Hondas haha. I may be sneaky and call Elliot, tell him I'd love a BMW and ask him to convince my mom they are great cars as well, bahaha. Don't call me stuck up, it would be an older 325i, they are pretty inexpensive nowadays. If not, I'd love a Honda just the same :).

I'm looking foward to this afternoon for sure. I may still be sick, but I'll no longer be contagious. Spider house with this amazingg boy it is :)

Endless Nonsense

So I was reading Kassiann's blog and through her frustration of not receiving comments, I decided to make my own blogger. Easily persuaded? Yes.

Christmas is around the corner and I haven't quite come to terms with it yet. Ever since my parent's divorced Christmas has never been what is use to be. However, anything has to be better than last years Christmas, it was total chaos. I'm a sucker for the holiday season, I really should try to make the best of it.

I feel as though I've come a long way since Michael broke up with me. I mean, at first I didn't know what to do with myself. It had been michaelandlucy, lucyandmichael for over a year and it seemed so bizarre to just be Lucy. To be honest, I'm really enjoying living my life just for me. I put way too much into that relationship, and he never appreciated any of it. He replaced me rather quickly, but I'm beginning to realize it was for the best. I can't imagine coming across anyone more selfish than him. I deserve far better, seriously. Have I found it? Maybe. We'll see..

I am still not receiving text messages from ATT or sprint users, and it is really getting old. I may have to buy another new phone which definitely sucks since I just payed out the ass for my blackberry curve. If you can fix my phone, I will love you foreverr :)